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As usual I've started a blog and then been too busy to continue it...well I hope that doesn't happen, I quite liked having somewhere to waffle my daily thoughts. There's something about spending so much time alone, the more you do it, the more used to it you get. I talk to myself a lot, but that's ok, it's normal to talk to yourself, but the amount that I talk to myself I think has a linear relationship with difficulty in talking to other people. I always notice it most with my dance teacher, Katie, for some reason, I just can't quite be normal with her...I talk in a strange disjointed almost jittery manner with her, I've no idea why because she is so lovely and likes being able to talk to her students I think, but with me I seem to just mumble my way through class. I wish I didn't, I like her a lot, she seems like good fun and is very friendly, I've got the problem of asking her about private lessons for Michael and I for our wedding soon also...we are planning something special :)

There are certain people I meet that I would like to make good friends out of, Katie would be one, a lady in my adult ballet class called Nancy, who is like this crazy Welsh lady that enjoys her gin and larps (live action role play) with her family, is another. But I can't seem to make friends effectively, I find it difficult to find common ground to talk about and then if we do find common ground I just find it difficult to continue a conversation, and I think because I am so painfully aware of how useless I think I am...it hinders my progress with people. I'm hoping I can move the Nancy-friendship forward though, she's really sweet and the geekiness of larping makes for good conversations...no no, I've just realised what my main issue is, I can talk to people reasonably...but I can't get past the casual chat stage. I can't move it on to a friendship, it's so much more difficult to start a friendship as an adult, you can't just meet each other at school and then have a sleep over...I find it difficult to understand at what point should you move up from casual chat to inviting people over for dinner, or going to see a show together...or just something outside of your usually meeting place. After our first proper conversation together Nancy had already invited me along to larp with her and her husband, now at the time it didn't occur to me that she was doing exactly what I fail to do every time I meet a potential friend...so perhaps there are no rules as to when you can invite people to do stuff....you just do it and hope for the best. It's like having to learn how to be social again, and I think some people have it while others don't. But I have decided that both Michael and I need to be pro-active in making friends and both Michael and I will be going along to the next larp event in June with Nancy and her husband, we will meet loads of new people and hopefully be able to escape from ourselves long enough to be someone who can make friends easily.

Enough of that waffle, I have good news on the Alina Cojocaru front, yes I know I said I would post up some curtain call pictures of Leanne Benjamin (who is 45 and an amazing dancer!) and Johan from Giselle, but we forgot to take a camera and the iPhone's camera just doesn't cut it. But I have better than that:
Not my own picture I might add, taken from Ballet.co forums, but yes that's Alina and Johan, and I managed to get a ticket on the day to go see her first performance in a year! And she was just stunning, she was obviously being careful, but that didn't matter and it is not the point of ballet to be able to perform acrobatics, she danced and performed as Giselle beautifully, she danced as if she was thrilled to be on stage again during act one, such joy and happiness spilling out over her. By the end of Act 1 she was truly broken by Albrecht's betrayal, Johan holding her up just a little longer than required just before her death, as if he was overjoyed he could dance with his partner on stage again. Act 2 was the embodiment of ethereal, she was there but not there, her love for Albrecht shone through and her dancing so light and airy, almost as if she was a wisp of something passed on into the other world. A brilliant return for her, such a shame she isn't dancing anymore of the shows I'd booked to see her in this year, but very glad to have seen her. Johan was as always a stunning dancer, such a strong and solid partner and so happy to be dancing with Alina again. There was a huge flower throw at the end, and she got a massive hug and kiss from Johan on the many curtain calls. Can't wait to see her next season, where I hope she will be fully recovered and able to perform regularly again.

Not been up to a whole much in WoW lately, just some raiding of Naxx, got to help tank the other night, was great fun being the off tank, we took down the Four Horsemen for the first time also, so we are making pretty good progress. With my exams coming up next month I wont be able play much at all, in fact I'm planning on setting up parental controls until after my exams and giving Michael the password so that I don't get tempted away from revision.

On a good note I have finally got my Gaynor's sorted out so that they now fit comfortably and feel really good to go on pointe in, so pleased they fix perfectly now, so when I finally get back to going to my pointe lessons, pain should not be a issue any more :)

I think I'll end on a happy cat today:
Pinky sunbathing on the bed :)